20-1=19

"Age is a case of mind over matter. If you don't mind, it don't matter." - Satchel Paige

My birthday party was awesome! There were over 30 people and even though it felt like my house was being bulldozed, it was totally worth it. Actually, the situation wasn't as crazy as I'm describing here but I had to clean the house after the party and it took me about 2 hours (even though I had Liisa and Karmen to help me). The presents I got were brilliant - for example the girls squad on the picture below gave me a jar where I should start collecting my college funds, it was one of the most motivational gifts I've ever got. The only thing always missing on my birthdays is the right weather or season - why wasn't I born in summer? However, the event was superb and I'd like to thank everyone who came. Thanks to Mark (as always) I have some great photos of the party.

Photobombing myself in

Red Lips

Kristel & Laura

Beautiful people

Elerin came all the way from Finland to attend my party. Sweet!

 Ingrid & Kristjan

Ice cold

Yey! Happy birthday to me!

I got the best gift from my parents. I've never had an iPhone but I've always wanted to have one. With their help I bought myself an iPhone 7 Plus and I'm feeling bloody satisfied about it. Finally, I can take some good-looking pictures with my phone without bothering my professional photographer Mark. My previous phone served its time well. The two pictures below were taken with my FRESH phone.

 Quality time with someone special

My presents - the drinks are gonna stay there for awhile now until my stepdad drinks them

My school holiday has been great so far. I've been keeping myself quite busy - I visited my sister in Tartu, attended a 3D-modelling/printing course, went to a restaurant and decided to take part in a short film which you'll be seeing soon. Can't tell you everything just yet.

Had a sushi night with my sister

FOOD PORN

"Ambition is a dream with a V8 engine." - Elvis Presley

You don't turn 19 everyday, do you? It was my birthday yesterday and the day was great - I felt amazing when my schoolmates came to wish me happy birthday. Furthermore, I'm going to have a few friends over on Friday, by a few I mean like 35 people - I hope my house survives the blast. I've also been going for regular runs lately. After the marathon which I finished second and a recent test where high school students are tested if they're fit enough to do army conscription (Kaitseväe test), I had a huge motivation boost. As I maxed out the Defence Forces test, I felt like I should train my stamina even more and reach for even higher stars. As two great friends of mine (a'holes) have been bantering about my desire to attend a university abroad, my response to them was that my plans have changed from "going to Harvard" to "running to Harvard". Quotation marks are there because I'm not going to Harvard, I'll leave the seats free for the smarter ones :D. But still, being an international student would be dope.

A small surprise gift from Mark, Simon & Merili (HUGE credit to Kermo for taking the pictures)

FOOD PORN

 Feelin' happy

Messy hair don't care

My grades right now are better than ever in high school. I just got a 5 in physics, my GPA is 4.6 (on scale of 1 to 5) and I'm feeling fantastic. I feel like my tutoring sessions in physics for Merili have really paid off in my grades too. I've started studying more at home. Once you get into the rhythm, melody sounds even better. Dancing sessions have been going rougher and tougher tho. I hope Marga won't give up on me just yet (I'm going to last longer than Greg did XD) - insides.

Self-made = well-made

As you can see I designed a notebook for myself. I can say I'm fairly satisfied with the final outcome - messed around with Photoshop two evenings in a row to get it done perfectly. The pictures were taken in a pizza restaurant a few days ago where we had a food orgy and wonderful studying session with Merili, Mark and Simon.

Kendrick Lamar - These Walls

Disparate Youth

"The purpose of life is a life of purpose." - Robert Byrne

We definitely aren't all the same. I feel like I'm weird, different from all the others. It's been hard to wrap my head around the fact that I might leave my family soon and go to university. I have so many thoughts in my head that I think it's going to explode.
First of all, if I really want to travel the world, the first step would be to study abroad but I'm scared of the thought that I might fail. There are so many risks included with studying in England for example althrough many have said, if I really want to do it I will cope with it. Some of my friends have asked, why am I writing my blog in English when most of my readers are Estonian. I'm not really sure but the most influential bullet point about why my blog is in English is that I want to improve my grammar and vocabulary. I know my language skills have to improve if I want to study somewhere else than Estonia, so I think I'm taking the right steps towards my goal right now, aren't I?

Diesel

Secondly, I can't just write everything in here - it's a public blog so some things have to stay private. The problem with that is that as I consider myself a really open and sincere person, I need to express my feelings with other people. Through that I'm often too much talking about myself and not listening to others. For example, when I see my best friends, I talk about all the things I've done and I see how they really don't care about the s*** coming out of my mouth (Sorry about the language). I might be overreacting but that's what my pessimistic side sees. You see? I'm talking about myself, again.
Now you saw some of my negative thoughts, I hope I didn't ruin your mood. There are some good things too - I'm happy that I have some friends who sometimes mention my blog and want to be in it and it really warms my heart. I've been also doing some designwork lately and designed a notebook for myself and you'll see it soon, I promise. I'm still trying to create a new look for the blog but it's really depressing because I want it to look perfect.
Finally, I'd like to thank two of the most important people in my world currently - Mark and Marga. The pictures above are also taken by them.

With Mark

Santigold - Disparate Youth

The Reds

"You have to execute. You have to sacrifice your body." - Pedro Martinez

We have this tradition in our school which our teachers aren't really fond of. It's a fun event where all the newcomers are dressed up as foxes and basically obliged to obey their ''masters'' which would be us, the seniors. Giving the ''foxes'' hard time would perhaps be an understatement because some of the stuff they have to go through is frankly quite gross. I was supposed to be the lord of two foxes though one of them was a bit freaked out by the oddities that he may have had to do and skipped school that day. Thankfully, the other one had more guts and even brought me chocolate to show who's the boss! It was a delightful day and in the end I had a lot of fun (whether or not my fox felt the same way is unguaranteed). ''Rebaste ristimine'' as we call the event has never been a piece of cake for new students here and this year was never going to be any different!

With my slave

Emotions after this day

Stefan down after having a contact with a fox with rabies

Lord Kristjan with Simon the Red

What a wonderful day

You can see how happy I am to see her suffer

There have been so much going lately but sadly I just can't write about everything. Talking about an event which occured 2 weeks ago already, Tour d'ÖÖ (Tour de NIGHT) - what is it? The answer is simple, it's about riding bikes when the sun has gone down. Events like this make my hometown really cozy and pleasant to live in.

#VLND, took by Silver Tõnisson

So, what else did I want to talk about? As some of you might know, I haven't been doing much sport lately so that means I should be out of shape, ye? Well, I approved myself the opposite on last Thursday. I took part of the local 3000m cross-country race and finished 2nd in high school men's run (10min 41sec). Wonder, if I had been training for the run properly, would I've won the gold medal then?

Silver